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When I was younger, I hated that word somehow. It was connected to a world I did not belong to. The life back then was kind of a predetermined one, just like any one elses was: I went to school, I had some hobbies and a few, very few friends. Which was all good in parts as it was and, at the same time, was not always good. I disliked the word because it was somehow related to the term "expensive" which meant unaffordable. I suddenly felt limited, because there were so many people, things and ways of life I did not know, unlike many people at teen age do today (no, I am not going to rant about today's youth at my relatively young age of 27, but you maybe know what I mean).
Later, when meeting different people and living away from home, studying languages I got to know more of those "speech bubbles" made of language to impress, manipulate or attack people. Many words impressed me, hurt me or confused me even more, as I investigated about words in different languages and their meanings. I learned many new English and Spanish words, and became more conscious for many English words being thrown around as buzzwords ("Anglizismus" is a frequently discussed term). Lifestyle then, a few years later, was still expensive, but reachable. There were unfluenciable parts of my life, for example whether to finish college or not, or whether to have a boyfriend and let him stay over night, but there were still so many locked doors.
Today, I am trying to adapt the word "lifestyle" to my sense of living. Still, there are so many goals and aims that seem as far away as the moon, and many things are still too expensive, but I do not feel as limited as I did 10 years ago. The importance for me is not in the word itself, but in the knowledge to get parts of my life manageable, to decide whether to have white wine or hot chocolate, whether to fly away on a holiday or hang around in the garden, whether to wash the dishes after cooking or two days later.
What a confused post...but this was what has been in my head for the past hours, among other stuff.
Later, when meeting different people and living away from home, studying languages I got to know more of those "speech bubbles" made of language to impress, manipulate or attack people. Many words impressed me, hurt me or confused me even more, as I investigated about words in different languages and their meanings. I learned many new English and Spanish words, and became more conscious for many English words being thrown around as buzzwords ("Anglizismus" is a frequently discussed term). Lifestyle then, a few years later, was still expensive, but reachable. There were unfluenciable parts of my life, for example whether to finish college or not, or whether to have a boyfriend and let him stay over night, but there were still so many locked doors.
Today, I am trying to adapt the word "lifestyle" to my sense of living. Still, there are so many goals and aims that seem as far away as the moon, and many things are still too expensive, but I do not feel as limited as I did 10 years ago. The importance for me is not in the word itself, but in the knowledge to get parts of my life manageable, to decide whether to have white wine or hot chocolate, whether to fly away on a holiday or hang around in the garden, whether to wash the dishes after cooking or two days later.
What a confused post...but this was what has been in my head for the past hours, among other stuff.
